The Wee Democracy

The Return

when last you heard from me, kiddies, i was on the verge of "breaking up" so to speak with M. i use the quotations, because you can't break up with someone you weren't in a real relationship with. but we were seeing each other, and then we were not. which is not to say that i didn't run the mini-gamut of emotions all associated with such a parting, from mild sadness to a modicum of denial to a twinge of acceptance and a bit of anger. ok, maybe more than a bit. ok, not even maybe.

but, all that kinda got put aside right around the christmas days (24th, 25th, 26th of december). it's hard to think about something like that when you're flooding with new and badass additions to your movie collection (alien, third man, for a few dollars more, etc.) and your tv season collection floweth over (the office, anyone? some sex and the city to tide you over? ali g, maybe?) yes, you spend a night in a bar with mark smoot, and your time is sure to get better when you've got some 'mo in a weezer t-shirt to despise, and stories to tell for weeks, nay, months to come.

and then, i went and i got myself a new job. no more foley's for me. not since last sunday. oh sure, i'm only two days into this new gig, but i've probably made more in those two days then i would have driving myself up the fucking walls at the store. but i'm making almost twice what i was making there, and hold the phone....look out...he's got insurance!

that's right, ladies. marry me, and you'll be covered.

and you know what....sitting here, writing this i realized something.

i don't want to write anymore. this blog has been cathartic when things were tough, when the lakes were dry, and the world seemed to be full of black jokes and dark laughs. but something's been changing in me. and i don't want to do this anymore.

so i may come back in a few weeks, or i may just pick things up in a new blog (don't forget the other address) but for right now, i'm gonna let this thing go for a while.

it's been fun, and i've met a few really cool people, but it's hard to judge stuff and assess the situation when it's still so much in the dark. but at least there's something comforting in that.