The Wee Democracy

minute by minute

its been building for some time now, and the rising tide can't always be stopped, squashed, pushed back. you open your eyes in the morning and you know you won't make it.

6:15 am - alarm goes off. snooze.

6:23 am - alarm goes off. snooze.

6:31 am - alarm goes off, stumble cold and sticky eyed into the bathroom. curse.

6:38 am - retrieve shirt, begin ironing process. watch good morning america, grow tired of news on hurricane frances. wish i lived on a beach, despite threat of storms and sharks.

7:05 am - engage in the breakfast making process. prepare mexican death dish. devour hastily.

7:25 am - shave. curse.

7:30 am - do battle with five baby roaches in the shower, try to wash them down drain, end up scooping them up with TP and flushing.

7:33 am - shower. wash hair. lather, rinse, repeat.

7:40 am - emerge cold, naked, from shower. administer gold bond, deodorant, burberry. apply clothing.

7:49 am - check email. none. become depressed.

7:50 am - dejected, head out to bus stop.

7:58 am - bus arrives. get on. listen to bjork, post (live). become worried over the lack of battery juice indicated by the flashing display. wonder how much of the precious juice is being sapped by the complicated blinking process.

8:29 am - arrive downtown. too hot. sticky. wait for train.

8:32 am - train arrives. get on. read Q, the abbreviated version of the dallas morning news, and the sickening trend of republicanism in texas youths. curse them.

8:59 am - arrive at destination. miss bus by about 15 seconds.

9:01 am - fight back tears. debate going back upstairs to train, and home.

9:04 am - decide to go get a bottle of water and some batteries at the gas station next door. switch to belle and sebastian, dear catastrophe waitress.

9:31 am - bus finally arrives.

9:50 am - arrive at mall.

9:51 am - fight back more tears.

10:00 am - get busy at work, can't be depressed anymore. too busy. can still be tired.

11:27 am - notice i'm not tired, or busy, become depressed again.

1:35 pm - go to lunch. chik-fil-a: 12 nuggets, chicken sandwich.

1:55 pm - retire to my secret nap spot. nap, heartily. try not to think of depressing things.

2:45 pm - return to work, bleary eyed, slightly rumpled.

4:45 pm - witness a customer accuse my partner of racism. laugh at partner.

5:43 pm - get five hundred dollar sale. rejoice. escape

5:50 pm - clock out. call diana. can't hear. hang up.

6:01 pm - get on bus to go home. talk to lisa on cell phone.

6:18 pm - wait at train station.

6:23 pm - get on train station full of texas tech people. laugh at them. miss school. resume depression.

6:48 pm - arrive downtown, wait for bus. talk to lisa some more. grow more depressed.

7:08 pm - notice bus is quite later than usual. grow impatient.

7:20 pm - call DART to bitch, but they are closed. curse to self, quite vulgarly.

7:27 pm - board the bus that is the more circuitous route to home. curse.

8:15 pm - arrive. tired, hungry, pissed, sad.

8:16 pm - receive no real mail.

8:18 pm - receive no email.

8:33 pm - begin blogging to alleviate depression.

9:03 pm - realize attempt is futile. wrap up entry.



feeling: vomit
thinking of: packing up
song of the day - hyperballad - bjork
i do all this before you wake up so i can feel happier to be safe again with you