The Wee Democracy

i'd like to live on the moon

the mall i work at used to have tv monitors in the food court. they weren't ever tuned to anything but some private circuit thingie, and mainly they just played family oriented crap. one thing they did play that i enjoyed, back in the day, was some old school sesame street musical bits.

this one they played, the one that i remember with the greatest clarity, was the one where ernie was up late at night, singing:


well, i'd like to visit the moon
on a rocket ship high in the air.
yes i'd like to visit the moon
but i don't think i'd like to live there.
though i'd like to look down on the earth from above,
i would miss all the places and people i love.
so although i might like it for one afternoon
i don't want to live on the moon

that's what i've got on my mind tonight. you want something so bad sometimes, and you let that want blind you to the reality - desires aren't always practica. and on that rare occasion when you get the opportunity to have that thing you want so bad, it rarely lives up to the hype, and usually just turns out to be predictably sub par.

i'm writing this at nearly two in the morning, trying in some way to purge this shitty feeling that haunts most nights. i don't know why, but nights have been a hard time to deal with the last year or so. i used to think that it was loneliness but i'm pretty sure that's not it. nights are quiet most of the time. sometimes, i can hear a train's whistle in the distance. i don't even know where train tracks are around here, so that's an indicator of how quiet it gets. beside the point....my point is, all the ghouls come out when it's quiet. and you've got all the time in the world to contemplate them. whatever.

all that aside, i've gotta hand it to ernie: he's better at reconciling imagination and the parameters of reality than i am. you know, for a muppet.



feeling: crappy!
thinking of: moving to new york!
song of the day: ernie's song and waltz #2 - elliott smith
i'm never gonna know you know, but i'm gonna love you anyhow