The Wee Democracy

job hunting blows.

there are those of your i'm sure who are aware that i'm still looking for work. there was a great prospect (if not a little ... difficult to picture myself in) a few weeks back, and the people who need to know what happened there know, and those of you who don't - t'ain't nonna your goddamn business.

anyways, i was watching dr. phil the other day - tuesday i believe, and the topic of discussion was families in the two income trap. i don't have one income, but part of it was about looking for work. so, this one guy said "you know, next to the death of a spouse, the death of a child, or some other member of your family...looking for work is the most emotional thing we do.

and it's true!! the emotional rollercoaster i was on yesterday is only a small part of it. and the experience a month ago with that other company had me reaching the zenith and the nadir of the emotio-scope. but, back to yesterday. in the morning i was flipping through the paper, and called about a few jobs. most of them had already been taken. i called one company, a trucking company that needed a clerical person, which, i'll admit, is not the most glorious of positions for a recent college grad, but oh well. so i called this joint, talked to a guy, and scheduled an appointment to come in! i was excited, but for some reason, i didn't tell my mom. i was a bit scared to. she's scary.

so, later on i was thinking, how am i gonna get there? to this appointment? and who was i gonna talk to? so it gets to be around 2, and i figure i need to call the guy back and ask who it was i spoke to - you know, for reference purposes. i call, and this busher answers the phone, and says, oh, i think we filled that position. so i was like, uh thanks, dickface. wastin' my motherfuckin' time.

but i was glad i didn't tell my mom cause it would have saved me some embarassment. i mean, i was getting excited about being a gopher at a trucking joint.

so, little high, then some disappointment.

then, around 4, my mom comes to get me in my room, and says "did you call P_______?" and i said, yeah, i sent in a resume the other day. "well they're on the phone for you". excitement.

so then, i talk to the person at P________. she's nice and says they want me to come in and fill out an application. i say ok. and i'm back on top again.

so i go in today, fill out this application, take this timed test, which i fared moderately well on, and interviewed with two people. and they want me to come back next week!! i'm so excited. it's not glorious work, but it's ok. and the people seem nice enough, if not a bit more business minded than those iowa mugs.

we'll see what monday brings i guess.




feeling: lonely, and horny as hell
thinking of: banging katie couric
song of the day: waltz #2 - elliott smith