The Wee Democracy

i saw Kill Bill today.

i told my friend jess that i saw it and she said "what's kill bill?" had we been in the same city, i might actually have killed her. but kill jess doesn't rhyme like kill bill, i don't drive a pussy wagon, and i cannot disappear after committing numerous bloody murders. i live in texas - they'd hang me.

anywho, i told jess that it was the bright spot in an otherwise dreary week. i took the bus to the movies today, cause my usual partner had to work. when i was riding home, i rode through downtown dallas, and i got very sad all of a sudden.

i can see two possible reasons for this pain. one -- i took many a bus ride and train ride in the summer of 2000 to go to my job with chrideen's dad. that's right, ladies, i did construction. it made me hard, and good with my hands. the skill of my tongue, however, is natural.....baby.

anyways, that job was reminiscent of a golden age. freshman year of college was good times. maybe a little misguided, but the doors were wide open, and we're all likely to misstep when we have so much before us. plus, it made me and chrideen real close. sigh.


reason two -- the bus route was also the means of transportation in that same summer, whereby i hunted down many a job opportunity with no success. perhaps the memory of that rejection was brought up again, and mingled with the most recent and vitriolic incident, to brew a fresh and vile heart-sickness in the meager republic of josh.

or possible reason three -- i was sad to see such a great and anticipated movie alone, and most of all, without smoot.

i miss my friends.



feeling: iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii'm so sad and loooonely....sad and lonely, sad and lonely!
thinking of: banging shannen doherty
song of the day: bang bang - nancy sinatra